So it’s been a rough week. There’s nothing in particular that sparked it exactly except that I am stuck in the Real Life version of the Dreaded Valley of the Shadow of The Middle with absolutely no certain end in sight. And that’s a really tough place to be. Any story, any middle slog is easier to endure if you can SEE the end. Even if the end winds up changing along the way.
I know the end I want. To get the HELL out of my day job. Whether that’s shifting to teaching online full time or getting out entirely. I did the math to figure out what I need to bring in from my writing in order to be able to either of those things (adding in the buffer for the additional money I’ll have to pay in self employment taxes that I currently DON’T have to pay). And the reality is that it will probably be years more before I can even CHANGE jobs, let alone quit both.
I…didn’t take it well.
But of course I am not prone to staying down for long. So I sat down to develop a business plan for the next year, focusing on the things in my control (production). It’s not iron clad as there are several balls up in the air at the moment, but I have three variations based on how each of those balls lands. Either way, end result is I have to keep my shit together and write the damn book. And then the one after that and after that. No matter the rate, the method (self or traditional) of publishing, writing more stuff is the only answer to the question. That and bacon, which makes all things better. Anything else is failure.
In that light, I sorted out what was wrong with the scene I was working on in Riven. And courtesy of a long chat with one of my CPs, I sorted where I derailed in DOTH, and I rewrote the outline for the entire last act of the book. I finished all the rearranging of scenes and adjustment of the outline in Scrivener and moved the stuff that wouldn’t work into the scratchpad. All in all, I only lost 1500ish words, which is not too bad, considering a multi-day funk. I didn’t get any new material written, but I plan to work on that today. Get back in the groove.